Anchored at last!

by Muthukrishnan
(India)

I am Mr. Muthukrishnan, a retired professor of English. From early boyhood, I have been wondering what God looked like. The curiosity led me to seek for Him in myths. These myths satisfied me as they do millions of the natives of my country even now. Around the age of 30, I added to my bare belief an intense practice of meditation to transcend my 'self'. I subsisted on yogic diet and observed sexual continence on certain days, considered auspicious for divine communion. Nothing happened though many months had passed. Disappointment drove me to atheism first and to dialectical materialism later. When the U.S.S.R. and the socialist block suffered political reverses, my heart sank. I despaired, "I have nothing to hold onto now." At this juncture, a Christian colleague pressed me to seek for Truth in Christ Jesus. As he persisted, one day I opened The HOLY BIBLE and started to read the first chapter of the Gospel of Matthew. At the start, it seemed casual reading but when I reached verse 21, I began to shake and sob. I had achieved the transcendence of my little 'self' which had eluded me for so many years. I felt that I was no longer my old self. I went to a church and got baptized in a river. Though I backslid often, yet, Christ Jesus has not cast me away. He never failed to restore to me the joy of salvation. I know that I am, at last, safely anchored.